Wednesday, 27 March 2019

Feeling a little bit lost at 24


I turned 24 nearly two weeks ago and since then my brain keeps sporadically reminding me just how old that is.


Okay, so I’m not even a quarter of a century yet and I already know I will have annoyed a few people older than me with that first sentence because I know it isn’t really OLD, but it still feels like a funny old age to be.

I’ve had a bit of an odd time since graduating uni in 2016 and the last three years kind of feel like they’ve just zoomed past me in a blur, like someone just came up behind me and pulled the carpet right out from under me.

And all of a sudden I’m 24 and I really can’t quite believe it’s been three years since I left uni and just where oh where has the time gone?

It’s not that I don’t think I’ve changed during that time because believe me, I really have, but I just sort of feel like I don’t know where I’m going anymore. I feel in a bit of a rut.

You could quite easily read what I’ve written so far and be forgiven for thinking that I’m unhappy with where I am, but that’s not the case either.

I suppose that’s sort of the problem. I’m totally happy where I am but I can’t help but think something is missing. I leave work in the afternoon with my whole evening ahead of me and I feel that there should be something in my free time that’s pulling me, but right now that’s missing.

And at the same time, to an extent that’s my fault. I’m so unmotivated. You might notice that in my sidebar it states that I post every Wednesday. That, my friends, is a lie. It wasn’t meant to be, but it just sort of happened like that.

I’m currently reading Dolly Alderton’s Everything I Know About Love and I will attribute some blame to this book for my current doubts and sparking my not-quite-yet-a-quarter-life crisis but mostly I think it’s my fault. There’s a chapter where her friend stops in the middle of the street and asks “Is this all life is? … Tottenham Court Road and ordering shit off Amazon?” and you know what? I just get it.

I feel like this should leave on a somewhat uplifting note where I detail my well thought through plan to climb out of the funk and figure it all out, but there isn’t one.

If anyone has any great ideas for the next big thing that’s going to change my life then throw it my way.

Until then, I’ll (maybe) be back next Wednesday.

xoxo

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  1. I’m 24 and I’m feeling lost as well! Here’s the hoping things get better for both of us, oddly I’ve found the blogging community and reading has helped me a lot

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